Time changes everything, even you and I have changed
YASMIN!
I'm not the girl next door, i don't walk with my nose held up high. Tend to keep every lil secrets in me, not sharing. I'm friendly only if you think so. I may turn nasty, if you want to. Happy go lucky, live life to the fullest.
- The ones we love tend to stay in our hearts and minds long after the relationship ends. While some move on quickly, others dwell and heal at a slower pace. Whatever the case, the thoughts, emotions and memories we experience during this time are heartwrenchingly powerful and real.
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I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone
“ When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. ”
I want it too, but i just can't let go
Thursday, September 9, 2010 || 10:49 PM
Can i finally say, its the end? Or its just that i'm the one who's still holding onto the past, but at the same time using other's as replacements & moving on? I don't know, i can no longer come to my senses. Many times, i really just wish to leave this world, to end my pain. But its the ones that i loved that i can't let go. My family, my mum. She had done so much fr me, & whenever i needed someone, she had never failed to be there. She knew about my story, she knew about my past. She dont looked down on me like how the others does. At least, fr all i know even if i really were to lose this whole world, she'd be the one who's gonna still be standing there forever fr me. I've really got to do something, to make her proud. Cos this past 13 years of being her daughter, i realized i haven't really had did anything to make her proud of. All i did was just disappointing her. If she really were to list out how much bad things i've did, i guess its gonna be never ending. Friends, they come & goes. I'm tired, i'm not putting in much fr them. Boyfriend? No, not at the time being. Cos its just gonna be too hurting fr me if i really were to have one right now. I'll be even more stressed up. Family, they're the only ones that i trust now, the only ones that will stand by my side forever. I'm not gonna wait fr anyone, anymore. I'm gonna move on. Clearing everything in my mind, in my life. I'm gonna start afresh, cos the future ahead is awaiting fr me. I gotta stand back by my feets, and help myself up first. Yasmin, its time to wake up after so long of dreaming.