I really wonder how you feel on these nights so alone
“ When the going gets tough, the tough gets going. ”
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Its how you think, thats gonna be the way how you react
Wednesday, June 30, 2010 || 7:20 AM
I believe.
Falling out of love is hard, falling for betrayal's worst
Tuesday, June 29, 2010 || 12:49 AM
You've gone so effortlessly. You've won, you can go ahead and tell them.
Tell them all i know now. Shout it from the rooftop, write it on the sky line.
All we had is gone now. Tell them i was happy, and my heart is broken. All my scars are open.
Impossible
Friday, June 25, 2010 || 12:38 AM
Broken trusts & broken hearts.Empty promises would wear.
i'm trying hard, not to hear
Wednesday, June 23, 2010 || 6:59 PM
Seeing you walking away, yet i can't do anything.
I can no longer have the courage to look into yr eyes
Tuesday, June 22, 2010 || 10:31 PM
Love triangle.
A journey to a place unknowned
Saturday, June 19, 2010 || 11:57 AM
We were at the grassland gazing stars the other night. As i lay on yr shoulders, you started holding my hand. & as i looked into yr eyes, you gaze me a great smile, and then whispering into my ears that you love me. Though it was just three simple words, but i felt like the world was mine. I turned away, but with me smiling silently without you knowing..
I know you care
Friday, June 18, 2010 || 11:26 PM
How long do you exactly want to hide? You can hide from me now, but not forever. I know what's on yr mind, i know exactly what you were wanting to say. I know how much, you even care. Its been so long since i last had this feeling, you made me feel so special, made me feel like falling fr you. I know there's still a river between us. But it'll slowly be moved away. Trust me, with our efforts. I can assure you. I know whatever you did was that you just simply care for me.
Hold my hand, pull me up. I dont wanna fall
Wednesday, June 16, 2010 || 1:33 AM
You came into my life, i opened my heart for you, & now that you're gone. Its closed & it'll no longer be opening.
I wished i could just make the time rewind
Monday, June 14, 2010 || 10:39 PM
Above pictures are taken in the bus & at WCP ((:
Had fun with Joe last night. Gazing stars, singing songs, hyper times ((:
Hidden in the dark
Sunday, June 13, 2010 || 5:34 PM
Star-gazing with Angie last night at carpark again. This time we waited for stars to come by. Its always beautiful to gaze stars with the person you love. How i wish i could.
You'll never know
Wednesday, June 9, 2010 || 7:26 PM
Sometimes when i say i dont care, & i walked away. You know for yourself that i actually care a lot & you mean a lot to me. How i wish i could just make you back to my heart, i need you. Honestly i'm not denying, i miss you & i need you. All the promises are gone now, i'll never trust you again. But yknow, i miss you. Dreaming about you almost every night. I can only see you thru my dreams. It hurts a lot, deep inside me. But i'll just be accepting the fact & moving on.
I teared as i thought back those times with you. As i can never get those moments back again
Tuesday, June 8, 2010 || 7:22 PM
" Never looking back, loving every seconds of this. "
Life got better even after you left. I chose to rule my own life, i chose to go my own ways. I'm am happily better off without you. You told me you need me, but why do you have to even leave? You're not like before, you kept saying i've changed. But it was you the one who had changed & you don't even realise. Let's just let the fate decide how far we can go & how long we can still hang on.
& how long could you hang on to a word?
Saturday, June 5, 2010 || 11:04 PM
I've tried to understand you, tried to make you feel better. But it don't seems to be getting any better. I've seen a lot, & i've finally seen thru you too. I'm sorry but i guess i would just have to let you go, not even being someone to you, not even being a friend to you. You forced me into this state, you forced me to do this to us. I've tried my best, but i'm giving up. I'm sorry.
P.s ; If i were to have a choice, to chose a song fr our story. I would chose the first song you used to sing fr me.
Cos' you know, from the start i'm just gonna break yr heart
|| 2:05 AM
Back t earth, Aww. Had an awesome day with the awesomest girlfies i had yesterday ;D The above picture shows everytg. Went town t walk & bugis t shop. Woww, my shopping sprees are BACKKK. Right now, i'm only left with 2 bucks ._. LOL!! Hmm, Shall work fr mum now >.<
To ken kee; Wooo, my dearest soulmate. Cheerup, uncle! ;D Though i don't really know the story of you & yr girlfriend. Ohh-no, EX GIRLFRIEND ;x Hmm, but just cheer up & don't think so much la ((: You'll still always have me. <3>
Yes i can see ya
Thursday, June 3, 2010 || 9:18 PM
The truth is forever turning out to be hurting. Although at times when they always said, " Better a lie that soothes, than a truth that hurts. " But its not to me. Probably i would just be better if you were to tell me the truth, and not lying to me. If you were to say that you lied, to make me feel happier. Then let me tell you, i'm not. In fact after knowing the truth of that, i felt even more hurt. Sometimes yes, nothing's perfect. But i honestly don't expect much from you, & i just want you to make your stay. We've not been ourselves lately & had been quarreling. And i don't enjoy it any single bits. Perhaps its fated that we have to end up like this. You're always the one saying i've changed, & saying the one i've not been bothering. But have and would you even thought that, whats the reason behind all that? You don't even bother asking & all you does was just insisting on your thinkings. This is how normally misunderstandings take place. I've had enough of all these & its really stabbing me hard. Perhaps i was the one who's only to blame. Becos' i've placed you & friends in the wrong place, i want my family back. But somehow i can't feel anything from them too. I don't know why, but this yr's seriously the worse yr ever. Having problems with my brothers. I'm just worried & i'm afraid that one day, even till the day that i meet my death.. Would family even be there? Sighh.. I just feel so far apart from everyone. Dear Dark father, guide me. I pray in the name of Lord Satan.
I can't understand, i don't wish to understand it too
|| 1:03 AM
Many times, I tried to make my life to even be a better one. I just can't stop living my life with regrets. After every decisions made. I just somehow can't seem to make myself move on & stop thinking about it. Because this was my choice, and i shan't regret about it at all. I tried to make up for the past, but it just doesn't seem to be getting in my way. I've lost everything. Once again, i'm standing on the end of this world, alone. I wouldn't listen to anything, anymore. Here i am, trying to tolerate you. Yet your not even giving me yr fullest attention, yr care. You don't seem to be even there for me. Whenever i turned around,i wished you were there with me. You can't seem to still understand what i really want after so long. You had been pushing all the faults & blames on me. I can't take it anymore. I'm struggling, & yet you're leaving. What's this? I'm tired of all these. I know, i've changed. I've changed to a person. Who's letting the emotions taking over her, who's really sensitive. Who can't seem to believe. & a girl, who can't seem to understand what's life about. If you honestly wanna see me changing back to myself. Then please make yr way back to me. Once you leave, you're only making it to the worse. Time may not cure everything, but at least it soothes.
It's time for me to get back to Earth
Wednesday, June 2, 2010 || 6:13 PM
This friday. Town with the rockababies. Ohh, i'm so gonna enjoy till the fullest bits before i have t go back t the sch fr enrichments. -.-" Fuck that yall.
My dearest Dark Father. I pray t you. Hallehlujah.
I'm yearning fr you
|| 6:06 PM
Its been so long, since i last turn back, & return back. Sometimes life is better off, when you don't even have to look back, for the past. I had been moving on, forgetting bout the past & right now i'm trying to lead a better life. Somehow i realised that it's not hard after all. Its the matter of how you wanna handle it & your mentality.
I failed
Tuesday, June 1, 2010 || 8:06 AM
I tried to reach out to yr heart, but to no avail. I can't hold on anymore longer. I'm sorry my dearest. But to tell you, i'm leaving.
